I live with my older sister house almost 8 years now she has a business a computer selling products computers like ASUS, HP, Lenovo anything computer products and accessories then im working with her as a I.T. Technical Support. i work her since 2002 until now in late 2003 my sister hired her as housemaid girl she was 19 years old then me i was 21 year old back then, in 2003 i like her, i was crush on her, like love at first sight with her i don't know how to express it. but i think she knew she liked me too also but i don't know what year she left in our house but i keep waiting on her and hope-ping to come back. its a more than a year like 2years and 3 months she work in manila with her auntie... and then she came back here she missed her family and friends and of course my niece, same stuff as usual doing in housemaid but my heart tells me to say something on her but i can't say it or do it, because i fell the pain with the chores in house even telling my sister to fetch her things to get but i help her even washing plates, cleaning house etc, then last year june opening school college she was study on her course HRT ( Hotel Restaurant Technology) while she work in our house then after several months pass one time my father visit my older sister with my two younger sister they stayed. and i was hard time to talk with her because too many people in house so i tried to text her hello, how's your doing? etc. one last year around 3rd week of november we make love one another because my two younger sister sharing with my bed then her bed i sleep with her beside her actually i was happy back then but at lease she accepted it beside her to sleep with her that night but i just pretend to sleeping when she sleeping in her bed i just watch her fixing her hair then all of sudden open her eyes then she kissed me i don't know what happen back there but i was happy for her to kissing me.(no hitting) then the next day same thing we kissed each other we hug each other like we already have a relationship. or like were married (laughing) ever since then i told her that i love you so much and you change me a lot and you gave a reason to live without you my life is a black and white i said, and she said i love you too you showed me how to be love a person like this. (smiled and stared in my eyes after that we kissed each other). then i gave her a strap on the mobile accessories with the letter I and symbol of heart after that a big teddy bear this was she so excited about and then she call it our baby... we still text and call and having some conversations... one day my sister called me about us she know already i don't know our relationship and my sister said she doesn't want it to be with me she said my sister i don't know why but all i know she doesn't know at all on march 7 2009 past 10pm we talked each other.. she said: to me that my sister already know about two of us. me: to her how did she know it? when? she said: i dunno know... me: so what about our relationship? she said: we separate our ways...? i dunno? (starting to cry) me: i don't want to (getting emotionally to cry) she said: this is the best way to not hurt your sister and your family (crying) me: yes but i loved you (crying also) she said: think of your family first(still crying) me: yes... but how can i be happy without you because i gave my heart to you and you going to breaking it?...(crying) she said: sorry for this i don't want it to separate us but i work with your sister.... she is my boss... me: i don't want to loose you... ive waited long enough since 2003 for staying in single for you. she said: i don't want to get involve with your family because of me... me: yeah i know but... she said: let's see if your two younger sister going back to pampanga. me: you still loved me? she said : yes i do love you. me: ok... this time again ill wait for you again. i promise you that i remain in single after finished your course in school is that ok with you... she: yes... if you can... me: thanks... i love you... she: i love you too... me: i miss you... she. i miss you too... but until now she was studying... i was waiting for finish her studies first after that maybe we can be together... before we i left she said to me she loved me always i saw past few days there's a picture of me on her mobile my picture was there on the wallpaper and the teddy bear she never throw or hide from the under closet my younger sister said to me she still hugging the teddy bear last night.... we have many talked but i forgot the others sorry for my memory... after this we ended conversation around 2am morning then the next day hard to move on between us... is it hard to love her because she was a housemaid... she's is not a monster right... or she is not human...! if you love her. you will do everything even what she is... right? by the way sorry for my bad english.... very sorry